What do people(I) want

There is an old saying in an otherwise new world which i have forgotten; probably google can point it out in some years with new technology; coz we will all be brainless but our devices will have brains. Yeah; more abt that in some decades time. Speaking of devilish things taking over the world…what do you want.. what fiendish creature are you craving after today; your promotion has been stalled coz of your won’t do attitude; you love is like a fortnightly trek where at the end of which, you are so spent that passion is on its inception like 3rd level. Your life reeks of boredom, monstrosity routine and destructive rampage. You have literally evaporated all the third world scenarios to abolish and end this world ; and yet you still havent  gotten around to look your issues in the face.

That book which is meant to be read; those countless books piling on your kindle; you dint have time for them but you have time for keeping tabs on the countless friends you are adding on goodreads. The existential crisis still exists; is still hungry for desires to be cooked up and then swallowed with no end in sight. Is this how we live life, in the fast lane?

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Day 1

It was a day which happened..a day which went on and a day which ended.
It was this day that we didnt speak, we were not together, maybe we both did remember each other at some time during the day and maybe also the day we started forgetting each other.
This day, with its ups and downs, its dusk and dawn , was a day which has passed us by, leaving just the remnants of us.
Its easy to forget, hard to remember, i wish i could say that.
But the day has past, n u r still u and i am still me and the ego hasnt moved an inch.

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walking down memory lane part 1

Walking down memory lane

I still remember the journey from delhi to sikar ( I met bathwal for the very first time) … I kept thinking duniya ke kis kone mein hai ye college. I had joined college, my most ardent wish to spent college outside of Orissa (btw I wanted to be far away from home , just saying).

The first thing that anyone notices for Mody are the immensely lengthy walls that surrounds the immensely huge college campus, like no way in hell, one can break out from here, so don’t even try you sons of bitches (oops wrong gender to shoot). So if you are even trying to imagine, you won’t find guys in it except for the highly talented phd fail professors who are as nice to look at as your next door unemployed youth who u wish doesn’t give u rabies or something.

Obviously, there’s the hugely well crafted gate which parents just ogle at or well if you go inside just a bit, THE MESS, or whatever. Well, this is the place the gals and mind you loads of them (they say it’s a 1800 seater and they are hardly wrong in that department) eat or more importantly eat onion less , odourless, colorless vegetarian food.

It seems how can I miss the place I so well hated in the beginning. Well, that is the irony of the whole life, isin’t it. People come and go, you start drinking alcohol, u see the meaninglessness of growing up, you keep going back to the people who keep breaking your heart (fuck the human race twice in the arse or as they say, bottoms up). The innocence of the times that we left behind, well lets not cliché it.

So , they say , its history , 2005 was the year a gal entered the freedom that her parents were willing to give her 11s2 , 10s1, 12s2 and again 10s1, these are no of hostels I have lived, (to make matters clearer, 11 s 2 is the 2nd building in 11th street). Living in a 7 seater with a set of weirdos (who are now well behaved boring adults or as they claim), going to stupid classes where baju walas make a point to wake you up in case drool passes on to them (I know… things people think!!!!), waking up and pushing the limit to enter a clean toilet(April Fool banaya, like that’s even a possibility), reaching the mess at 8.20 and pleading with the locked gate to magically open. Mind you, The Mess is reminiscent of Hogwarts Mess and magic worked here too sometimes- The umbrellas disappearing from the bag room , milk magically appearing when most passionately asked for from Kalu Bhaiya, mango dolly on Saturday evening and 2 gals kissing openly (In India; who knew Mody would be a frontrunner for a more Open and inclusive India).

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Emptiness

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Falling in and out of love

I think we fall in love with moments.. Rather than a person. We fall in love with the laughter , the cries, the heartbeats and the memories those moments bring to us. People don’t fall in love with other people, they just fall in love with the memories. And to let go of the memories, is one of the most difficult task to accomplish. I saw it the other day, when I saw us together in a dream, all the great joyous moments , the lighthearted banter and the love which I hope was there.

And maybe this is the reason people fall out of love, they just make memories which are not memorable anymore, the disappointments, failures and struggles and they focus on the negative parts and forget the positives, coz there aren’t any. The illusion of love is forgotten and what remains is just heartbreak and resentments.

So what is falling in love? Why do we make ourselves so vulnerable to another person, why do we feel so strongly when disappointments creep in… why does the heart breaks so frantically and the sound of its breaking doesn’t even come to the person who was responsible to all this bullshit. Why , does this emotion so messy.

People also stay in broken marriages , maybe thinking that those resentments will get changed one day into good days again. Partners will remember or make new memories which don’t suck and life will be better again. Becoz its just too difficult to start all over again with some another being.

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Comicon in Mumbai

Finally the experience of comicon in mumbai. Loved it. Could have faced some less crowd, but its india we are talking about. All the fan girls and fan boys in one place, all the amazing series – True Detective, Supernatural, Game of thrones, TBBT and their characters under one roof and indian fans drooling over them. Its great to see that happening in India. Well, more organization and crowd handling skills are needed but we will get there. Got some memorabilia like – Tyrion Lannister photo, Sheldon Cooper Mug and some freebies. A good day to spend at the Comicon.

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How Would You Feel If You Found Out Your Marriage Was Over Via Facebook?

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Why We Need To Appreciate Our Own Aloneness

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Sunday morning. Getting up late n feeling awesome. Reading news on mobile. Thinking of going to gurudwara n praying for a direction in life.

Will try to finish a book today. Yesterday…went to crossword n contemplated the no of books that need to be read. Hmm…

 

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Napping. Saturdays r lovable. Notting hill on TV.  N later how to train ur dragon 2. Toothless is older.:)

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